Monday, March 29, 2010
heyy !!
hmmm... guesss i havee troublee sleeping as usual..
and each day i sleep at around 5-7am geez..
but i keep asking myself.. why do i have that attitudeee..
sighh.. i dun evenn noee thee right answer to itt.. butt..
i guesss its cause i'm just saddd.. manyy reasoon to it or in it...
I miss thee fun i havee.. the smiless on my everydayy lifeee..
thinkin abt thee past madeee me smilee and alsoo feel likeee cryinn..
but likeee peoplee sayy whats past is past nw look into thee present...
itss easy to bee said den bee done.. sumtimess i thought i couldd doo itt.. sumtimes i thought it has goneee and ahead of mee is just happiness and full of joyy.. but den i think it back.. it was just for a momment... sumtimes i think when will i havee de joyful days in my lifee backk..
to tell the truth.. few weeks or few mnths agoo.. althoughh i cant sleep there's someone namee hanifaa.. i call her ifaa.. she's de bez.. She always accompany mee although shee feel tired and sleepy.. it feels so great to havee her as a fren... but.. thesee few dayss.. sigh.. i dunoee but.. this is what i feel.. things between us feel soo far.. its likee im losing her... guess its my fault ?? maybee soo.. i dun likee to blamee others..
Whats thee point of having fun in lifee and losee it all ?? its soo nt right.. but thats what lifee iss right? the only thing i should doo is just patience i guess.. sighh.. i'm soo stressed upp.. I wish theree was someonee to talk too.. what does truee friends means.. i wonder.. sometimes i thought i found onee.. but likee i said what thee point when u will lose them ? blehhh... and on top of all thesee.. i have a little prob wif my ex i guess ? yesterdayy.. i send her a msgg sayin this will bee the last i'm texting her... Sighh.. i just want her to movee on.. She havee a guyy and shee keep wantin mee.. it makes no sense.. soo theree u goo..
There's onlyy onee funny thing happen yesterdayy hahaha.. thinkin of it makees me smile and guilty at thee samee timee hahaa.. i'll tell u guyss.. heree goess.. i put on my shoutout at msn sayin whyy do frens always leave.. its a sadd thingg.. someeone tegur and i feel shocked that she tegur.. out of nowhere hahaha.. chey nowhere sey haha.. shee ask mee who and i say my bez fren.. den chat sekejap dgn diee.. and i feel likee i just want to be alonee.. ohh yeahh her namee is yuyul.. the last part when i wan to sayy goodbyee is weird !! lol .. and i just typee without thinkin hahaaha.. i saidd.. [kayy laaa.. i gtg.. thanks for yr careness.. papee i will text.. heehs] den i think back. what am i sayingg.. i dun even havee her num hahahaa.. den aleh shee gavee her num.. i was likee soo guilty.. butt ohh well.. thats the onlyy fun thing that made me smilee... sighh.. whenn will my boredom endss.. its makin my lifee doom.. hahahaaas.. cheyy2 last copek nk try rymthe.. haaha.. boored/doom .. hahaa.. kayy daa perasaan.. ohh !! i'm smiling lol .. kayy da .. mcm org gyleee..
thatss for nw.. Wishh thee day will be better..
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4:27 AM
heyy ! peeps !!
at last i updatee.. whahaha..
but everytime i updatee.. there must be sumthin wrongg..
in my lifeee i meann..
lets makeee it short i dun havee de mood to typeee longg2 ..
hahahahaa...
kayyyy hereeee goesssss !!
Geez.. i dunoe whats wrong wif people or maybeee just meee..
sighhh.. i'veee start losing fren oneee by oneee...
andd i feeel likeee i'm losing my bez frennn..
ohhhhhhhhhhh geeeeeeeeez.......
whatt a sadd thingggggg......
omggg i misss her soo muchhh !! =/ ..
till deeenn baaaaa...
ohhh yeahhh countdown !!
in 29 days moreee and im goin nss..
gonnaaa miss allll of youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !!! =)
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4:27 AM